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wash you of the sins that plague you β§—

[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-26 03:08 am (UTC)(link)
( some fun 21 and 22 from here for these two touch-starved losers but first β€” )
[ nearly two weeks since she broke into his apartment and after a week of radio silence on her end, she lets him know she's alive in the most yelena way possible: ]

hey
are you home
and do you have alcohol
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-26 03:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ ugh. she was counting on him being busy and being in a whole other state. she would rather not see him like this but... ]

like at least two bottles?
and do you have painkillers


[ and no she's not dodging his question ]
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-26 04:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ is he worried? cute. ]

what if i was just thinking ahead and making sure you have painkillers for my inevitable hangover tomorrow because i wanted to drink myself half to death
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-26 01:33 pm (UTC)(link)
ha
if it were the former i would not have swam back up for air
luckily we are celebrating me living yet another day!!

i require copious amounts of alcohol for the pain and for my wound...s


[ and bucky's place is, unfortunately for him(?), the best option right now. ]
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-26 06:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yelena figured it best to give him a heads up this time; had it been under any other circumstances, she would have just barged in without any moment's notice.

while she is not Dying β€” at least that's what she thinks β€” she is under a lot more pain than expected. (she has been feeling it more now than she ever has under dreykov's command.) she avoids the main streets as much as she can, leaving the roofs for another time when she is not as focused on staying alive. she resorts to trudging along sketchy back and side alleys, sending a death glare in the direction of all the youths that dare look her way. at least they look concerned?

with the little amount of adrenaline she has left coursing through her veins, she hauls ass onto bucky's balcony (she refuses to go through the front door) and funnily enough, knocks. once.

then yelena swings the door open, there in all her roughed-up glory. as far as he'll be able to see; she isn't sporting any black eyes, thankfully, but there is a gnarly cut along her left cheekbone. her neck and forehead are sheen with sweat, and she looks exceptionally done with everything and everyone, with the way she has her right hand on her side β€” but she's actually applying pressure to a (kind of?) deep gash beneath her ribcage. ]


I should've taken an Uber.
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-27 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
[ is he snapping at her? either way, his question makes her want to annoy him more. ]

I like to make an entrance. Plus, climbing is fun.

[ it is, without a doubt, more fun when she's not keeping herself from bleeding to death. yelena's guard is always up when she wants it to be, especially after such a high-strung mission in which things obviously did not go to plan. but she is tired, and it would serve her no purpose to swat away the careful hand of a man that needs to look at her wounds up-close. (maybe he wanted to see how bad it was, and the nearer he got the better he was able to see so β€”)

she doesn't put up a fight when he tells her to take the armchair, and plops down onto it with one hand on the armrest, the other one still occupied with applying pressure to the slash under her ribs. ]


Everything is pretty minor except for this beauty over here. I feel like it was karma for slashing at Oksana. [ and ultimately, killing her but saying it out loud now makes her want to throw up.

yelena lifts the palm of her hand to show how deep it is, which can't be that bad if she hasn't passed out yet. nothing some stitches can't fix. then she nudges her left leg against the side of the chair, ]
Got grazed by a sniper bullet on my thigh here. Um β€” oh, my back hurts and I have this cut on my cheek. Duh. [ as beaten up and blooded as she is (but you should see the other guys, is what she would say), she still remains to be in high spirits so that's got to count for something. ]

But I'm still pretty with it, right?
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SO I GOT A LITTLE CARRIED AWAY .....

[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-28 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ if the intent behind the compliment was to shut her up, it worked. yelena thought about making a comment on his hair or his choice of sleepwear because she always has something to say, doesn't she? (don't guys sleep naked? or shirtless? except that would probably make her come off as a pervert when it's a genuine question!) but no. she does not even let out a peep as he lugs himself over to her.

part of it is due to her brain trying to process that what he said was a thing that happened at all, and the other part is yelena trying not to make a big deal out of them being so close. it conjures up a strange sensation in her chest; it's not something she feels often, but it's not so foreign to her either that she doesn't know what it is. she does.

he's lookingβ€” or rather, examining her and they're bumping knees β€” not in the way yelena would've wanted – clothes and all (hers a little more ripped than his) and he hasn't even touched her but somehow it is enough to make her feel all the warmth rush to her cheeks. ]


Okayβ€”

[ she's Undressed before men before. beyond her tighty whities, even! she looks at him and has to pretend that the way he's looking at her has no effect on her whatsoever, but she's probably doing a shit job at it right now because all she can think of is how his eyes remind her of the sea, of the beach that melina and alexei took her and natasha to when they were children.

she hates that there's a stutter in her movements, when there normally wouldn't be any, as she frees that fresh wound from the sweet pressure of the palm of her hand. yelena straightens up some and pulls her shirt up until it's rolled up to just above her chest. which is, thankfully, covered by a black sports bra. aside from the cut, there are some bruises on her stomach, by her hipbone. ]


Sorry about your chair. [ that she's most likely bleeding onto, now. ] I'll get you a new one. Maybe a red one.
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-28 06:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's rather difficult for yelena to imagine bucky in a state anywhere near the one she's in right now. probably doesn't help that the last time she was here, all she saw was the bullet hole in the sleeve of his jacket and nothing else. but other than that there was no clear indication that he got his ass handed to him. she figures he means sam wilson. natasha, even. any one of his friends β€” there aren't many, she knows that much β€” that are less sturdy than he is.

this pointless train of thought keeps her occupied for a bit, at least until he's disinfecting her open wound. yelena flinches and lets out the heaviest of exhales, though it's unclear to her if it's due to the sting of the antiseptic or the feeling of his fingers on her skin. they're calloused, but warm and they definitely don't match the tone of his voice, or the look on his face when she first walked in tonight.

which she appreciates, but she's not as fragile as one might think. ]


I don't want to talk about it.

[ her ego is, though. she goes a solid minute without saying another word before feeling awful about being snippy with him when he's doing her a favour and patching her up in the middle of the night. not to mention, her blood being all over his couch by the time he's done with her. ]

I was supposed to extract two stray Widows.

[ yelena hears rustling between them, and when she looks down she sees him going through the contents of his first aid kid β€” probably preparing to stitch her cut up, so she relaxes some. she tries to keep her breathing even, but it's a little harder when her heart decides to act up once the heat of his bare hand pressed against her skin settles in. ]

I'd been monitoring them all week, like a hawk. I know their routines β€” or at least I thought I did, and it was supposed to be easy. I was supposed to be in and out and nobody was supposed to get hurt. But that's always easier said than done, isn't it?

[ once he starts on her sutures, yelena's first instinct is to turn the other way where he can't see her face. her pain is audible, in the form of a grunt and without thinking about it; she reaches out to clutch onto the front of bucky's shirt, balling her fist into the fabric as she squeezes her eyes shut. ]

I won't bore you with the details, but there were two others. Anya and Sasha arrived just in time and if you think I'm in bad shape, you should see the other guys. [ she SAID IT, she really did. she's very amused with herself, even now. lets out a triumphant, ha! before wincing. ] Thankfully, the two Widows we were after are fine. A little scratched up but okay. I told them I wanted to get a celebratory drink before regrouping tomorrow and tracking down the rest.

[ and because she needs to get it out now: ] Thanks for responding to my very vague text earlier.
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hover over russian text for fun translations!!!!

[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-28 11:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[ bucky is not someone that talks a lot. she's figured out a long time ago that he only really chimes in if he cares enough to say anything at all. so a pep talk from bucky barnes himself? definitely not full of shit, and it makes her feel a little less like she didn't fail at her job. maybe it's because he thought her worthy enough to grace her with the quips and little taunts that he keeps hidden and locked away behind that detached, indifferent mask of his.

yelena is just glad that he can let go around her and treat her like a normal person β€” except that goes both ways, doesn't it? since their reacquaintance, she has seen him as more than just the winter soldier. he is a man that's trying to to make up for sins that he was forced to commit, and there are still traces of brokenness in that man she's not sure anyone can fix. (maybe she's projecting; maybe she sees a little too much of herself in him, but.) still, she finds herself gravitating towards him even when she doesn't have the time or room in her heart to. ]


Oh? Do you know if she's pretty? [ she's joking. kind of. ] Ah. Don't sell yourself short. You're plenty of fun, James β€” О, Ρ‡Π΅Ρ€Ρ‚ β€” when you're not putting me back together. I cannot believe you are making me go through this sober, by the way.

[ if she's still cracking jokes, she's not in that bad of a state. it helps immensely that bucky is poking fun at her too, since it helps take the edge off of this whole ordeal of him seaming her gash shut. no longer stiff as she was moments ago (despite the blood that's soaking into the waistband of her pants, and she thinks, poor james, because his own hands must be dripping red), her grip around his shirt loosens. she doesn't let go just yet, though. ]

Didn't you know? You are my celebratory girls' night out. [ she's beaming at him now, even as another hiss escapes her. ​] Getting patched up by James Barnes is definitely more exciting than bar-hopping. I mean, just look at this stitching job. It is impeccable. Could be a surgeon.
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-30 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's fun to pretend that they're people with typical traumas, and normal jobs. like he didn't just pretty much single-handedly take care of a nasty gash in the middle of his apartment. this is just a normal tuesday night for people in their line of work. ]

Wasn't the strange doctor man a surgeon? Surely it's not too late to make aβ€” a career change.

[ in a poor effort to reassure him, she mutters something under her breath and makes a face when he presses the gauze pad that's flat on his palm, against her sutures. her mind wanders without her permission, and she wonders for half a second what it would be like for his fingers to dig into the flesh of her hips whenβ€”

and then just like that, it's gone as soon as the pressure of his hand is relieved. he can't see, but there is a flash of disappointment that crosses her features, followed by relief once he gracefully throws her that promised bottle of painkillers. ]


Oh, thank goodness. I thought you were holding out on me because I didn't buzz in and come through the front door like a normal person.

[ in truth, she is also hyper-aware of their closeness but she... doesn't mind it, when she usually would. yelena is thankful that he's busy organizing his trusty medkit, because that means he's not paying attention to her face and how she's chewing on the inside of her cheek trying to decide how the fuck to proceed. ]

Actually. Maybe hold the vodka. I want to take a shower. [ she remembers she's making herself feel a little too much at home here so, she rephrases. ] Can I use your shower?
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-30 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Ha, [ and a very sarcastic ha at that, specifically at bucky calling her a mess. it's fine. she can appreciate a good humour when she sees one, especially when it matches hers down to the straight-faced, dry and deadpan delivery she's so very good at. she'll give bucky credit; maybe he was the blue-print. like he was for other unspeakable things. but what is trauma, if not something yelena can poke fun at as a coping mechanism? not that's something she could ever blame him for. he is human, after all.

once bucky scurries off to dig through his closet, yelena tells herself that it's silly to miss the body heat when it was barely even there to begin with. (but though it was; except that was just the closest thing to intimacy she has felt in months and it's rather embarrassing, even for her to admit that to herself.) he looks back at her and flings a balled-up piece of fabric her way, she lets it fall into her lap with a snort.

she hauls herself up and puts the shirt on, lets it hang above her shoulders because it would just get soiled by the grime and blood that's currently stuck to her. as he's gently giving her directions to the bathroom β€” that she also definitely saw β€” she has the gall to wave a dismissive hand at him. ​]


Yes, I know. And there is a fake floorboard in the cabinet under your sink. I know that, too.

[ with that said, the door closes behind her with a soft click. it's followed by the rustling of clothes being removed, as well as a string of curse words being said in russian like bastard or motherfucker before she finally turns on the water.

yelena emerges from the bathroom twenty minutes later, swimming in his shirt with a towel on her head but. no pants. no underwear either, because the one pair she had on was soaked in sweat and blood. who carries around spare underwear anyway?? ]


Hey, James? [ she calls out from the doorway, her clothes neatly folded in her arms. ] Do you have a pair of shorts I can borrow? Boxers will work fine, too.

[ what are boundaries ]
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-31 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ yelena has to bite back a smile. has to choke back a laugh as she watches bucky scramble for something to wear underneath his shirt that she's wearing, after he was so obviously ogling at her legs. like a teenage boy β€” well, it doesn't surprise her, considering how he's living. in the meantime, she removes the towel and throws it onto the towel rack in the bathroom behind her. her hair was tied when she was getting operated on by dr. bucky barnes, but now her hair is down and still much too wet, leaving damp spots on his t-shirt.

he fulfills her request and she takes the boxers from him. in turn, she gently shoves her folded pile of clothes against his chest, the bottle of pills sitting atop. at this point, it's a little too late for yelena to pretend like she has any shame or too shy when she takes a step back to slip into the the provided boxer shorts. in front of him. (she probably would've done the same if it were anybody else; except her heart wouldn't be hammering this hard against her chest, she's pretty sure.) ]


Oh! These are pretty comfyβ€” What?

[ give her a second. she's racking her brain and he can probably tell by the way her features contort into slight confusion before she bursts into a fit of laughter. ]

Yes, that's what I said. But you said they were "very nice", if I remember correctly.

[ LOOK. SHE CAN BE SMUG ABOUT IT IF SHE WANTS TO BE ]
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[personal profile] viuva 2021-07-31 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ she is absolutely tickled at his admission, even more so at his reaction to her getting dressed in front of him as if he didn't just have his hands on her bare side half an hour ago. granted, he was tending to her wound and didn't have much of a choice but still β€”

she manages to snatch the pills before he skitters away god knows where, since there is zero room here for him to hide with the exception of the bathroom that she is half-occupying. yelena sees him crash into the table, and she figures MAYBE she should go easy on him. even though she isn't doing anything......

yelena stomps over to him when he mentions "water" and petulantly, she crosses her arms over her chest.

one word: ]
Vodka.

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